Well I was caught off guard when I got home from work. I pull into the driveway and see Carly getting out of Kristen’s minivan. Two months ago, this would have gotten an “ah crap” response out of me. Today, the first thing that popped in my mind was “let’s do this”. We sit around the living room for a while laughing and goofing off. The typical male side of me can’t help but get a peek at her cleavage from time to time. I can’t help it, I’m a guy. We go out for dinner. When we get back to the house, Kristen tells me she has a bad headache. I agree to give Carly a ride back to her apartment. Carly is only the 6th female to sit in the passenger seat of the Miata. She’s only the 2nd female that wasn’t family. I put the top down and we head down the road. It is a perfect temperature outside. We have friendly conversation while driving down the road. At that moment, I’ve wanted to tell her everything. I wanted to tell her more than I had ever wanted to since this whole ordeal began. We arrive at her apartment. She gets out, gathers her things and thanks me for the ride. She also mentions how much she loved riding in the Miata. With that, she turns and walks away. I know I will see her again, but at that moment, it felt like I was telling her goodbye. It’s that unusual feeling you get when you know a chapter in your life has just come to an end. You think back to the events that brought you to this point. You feel a little uneasy knowing your life will never be the same and you know you can never go back. It leaves me feeling just a little sad, but mostly, I feel liberated. It feels as though this whole ordeal brought my life to a complete halt.
So this is where we are. It has most certainly been a long journey. The feelings are still there and I’ve accepted the fact that they will probably never go away. In another time or another life, I things might have been a little different, but I know it was something that was never meant to be and I can accept that and finally move on. I want to thank each and every one of you that traveled with me on this journey. I don’t know where I would be today if it weren’t for every one of you being there when I needed a shoulder to rest my head on, or being there with good advice and well wishes or even just being there to let me know I didn’t have to face this alone. I don’t know how often I will be by here, but I will try to stop by every now and then. Who knows, maybe one day I will start another blog. A better blog. A blog full of happy memories and tales of adventures. For now, I guess this is goodbye. May we meet again one day.